JIAYING

Thursday, July 16, 2009 /3:22 PM

Thursday was a terribily miserable ultra dull day for me. Everything not running smooth, and wherever i go, there's just some blockage that irritate me. I feel so hurt and dissapoint too. It's the same feeling as if someone had thorn my heart. This feeling never go away even when I throw my words on my mum. It just so stubborn. I feel like jumping down a cliff and scream to my heart content. It's surrounding my heart and wont leave. I guess I just have to bear with it and sleep.

But just before I sleep....... I would like to tell you, my dairy.

Thursday school life was terrible. First, it's english period. There is a creation of new class called the combination of Band 2 and 3 class. I was not choosen to join the new class, so i remain. Ms Yong say that cause the whole english departent feel that we, the sec 4 need more attention to improve. And that if the class is so big, the teacher wont be able to focus so much on everyone. So they have the idea of additional class. But I don't think its good for me. First, i'll have to be separate from my close friends, secondly, we have to give up our class and went from 4th floor straight down to the contenous room ( spelling not accurate) It so inconvience for us and not fair!! Why in the hell must there have spilt class!?!?!

Next, it chinese period. Chinese is okay. We had fun playing the "say out your inner heart" game until recess. Then after recess, it's biology. Ms Wong give out our bio paper and...... I get the class lowest mark 51.6. I don't know how i get this mark. Maybe I was not serious or I can tell you, I give up on this prelim. I totally have no confidence anymore. Everyone is like getting above 65 and me was like...... But I did really try hard and doesn't have a saying that goes like this " you reap what you sow". I can't blame anyone, I can't complaint, I can't say anything, It my own doing.

Physics and History really suck like hell. And I hate Han Wen ( I hope he will see this even though he won't) He seriously know how to hurt people. He was like seeing that I didnt get back any paper, and keep asking why I didnt get back my paper. Then he will answer by himself "orhhhh, cause you never take the paper ar" Then during History, he asked the same question. I purposly dunwan to reply, and he keep calling me. He just want to see that i at the tinest least had nodded my head and he is satisfied. He does not know the word of " mind your own business" at all! I felt so discrimated. I can't say anything! Cause I was wrong in the first. If I were to blame, I can only blame myself.

Now it really time to sleep.... good morning. and good night...